Today was a very long day. After taking the little one into the doc's office, I made sure to leave some news with the doc. It is good to keep them posted about things and to make sure that things are in order. I returned back to the grocery store and exchanged my bra (front loader) and picked up my prescription for the chemo. When I had seen it, my heart just sank. Yes, I know that this is real, but it really sunk in deep. I HAVE CANCER!
When I got home, I made sure to go see a neighbor and ask a very important question. I made sure that this question was not going to be too much. Come to find out, her father has experienced the same thing with respect to the diagnosis of cancer--we are not lepers.
It is good to know that this is not just a figment of my imagination. Can I do this? Yes, I can do this.
No matter what; we cancer patients are not lepers. To look at my scar now, I get very emotional. I have been changed forever. I know that I can look at myself in the mirror and see that I have had a huge ordeal that I had gone through and yet more to continue.
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