Why we continue

I am sorry that I have not been getting to my blogs. There has been quite a bit that has happened over the last three years that I have not been able to get to my blogs.

My last entry left off where my provider had received the assessment regarding my diagnosis of PTSD. From that point, my provider had discharged me from the clinic and I was left to look for a new provider. I was told that doctors do not like being corrected. Well, it is safe to say that patients do not like being maldiagnosed/dysdiagnosed/misdiagnosed. When the provider does not do their due diligence on matters, it can create great harm. I remember the email that I had received regarding this assessment and I was very sure to let the provider know that I was not happy that I was seeing so many specialists. When the provider was wondering why I refused the first refusal to go to a Psychiatrist, I reminded him that it was not my intent to be seen by yet another specialist. When I had shared about my chemo nightmares, he turned, with hands lifted in the air, expressed loudly, "Oh my god, what you need is a psychiatrist!" So, what part of that is welcoming and accepting of a referral? what part of that makes a patient feel they are valued and listened to?

So, I had called my insurance company and told them what had happened. I had gotten another provider with a different healthcare system. This provider was very good. We had discussed the PTSD diagnosis where he commented that there was nothing wrong with being diagnosed with PTSD. I agreed. There is nothing wrong with the diagnosis and it is an ample way to explain behavior. However, this diagnosis also says to other providers the psychiatric need, which may not be amply understood or properly cared for. There is a bias and that bias will be experienced by providers who do not understand or know how to treat. I did express that the diagnosis was in error and that I was not going to be improperly diagnosed for more incomplete care or direction. I have experienced so many disastrous things.

Currently, there are a lot of bad medical appointments that have accumulated to my attitude. I want things to change and I want to be part of the change.

Forgive me for not getting my blog completed these last three years. I am here to keep going.

Moving on. Pressing on. Being more.